Saturday, January 19, 2013

Finding Home

So this post is going to be more of a brief history up to present about my disabilities and how pottery has helped me...and our search for a "home" to call our own.

Easter of last year, I had a significant decline in my health.  I had what the ER docs called "transient blindness".  My vision was next to nothing for about 48 hours and then it gradually started coming back to normal.  Took about a week.  But during that time, my legs also started to feel extremely weak.  I had several falls because my legs just gave out.  LOTS of bruises later, the VA docs gave me what are called "Canadian crutches"...the ones with the elbow brace.  For a couple of weeks, I had to use two crutches to get around.  The nerve pain came and went as it pleased.  Some days were/are better than others.  But due to the leg pain, it made walking even worse.  So the VA gave me a wheelchair.  I just recently acquired a new wheelchair from the VA that was custom made for me.  It has all terrain tires so I can get around better.  But I digress... 

Before my legs started "acting up", my fiance and I lived in a second floor apartment.  Needless to say when I started using the crutches and the pain/weakness became more constant, I could no longer do the stairs.  During this time, my parents offered to let us live in their cabin about 3.5 hours north of where we were currently living.  It's a single story ranch style log cabin.  MUCH more ADA friendly.  So last summer, we moved up here.  I was able to get my pottery studio established and have really been able to grow my Etsy store.  It's been GREAT for that.  But unfortunately, there are a lot of other experiences we could have done without.  It's been hard on my fiance being so far away from family and people who can help him/us.  He is also my caretaker and takes his "job" very seriously and worries about me a lot.  The cost it has taken to heat the house this winter has really set us back and forced us to rearrange our finances.  He's not happy here, and it breaks my heart.  :(  We are also 9 hours away from my punkerhead (my son lives with his father due to my health issues..) who lives in Massachusetts.  Needless to say, we are looking to move as soon as we can make it happen.  We are looking for OUR home.  But we are limited.  The home has to have a first floor bedroom because I can't do stairs, my fiance wants LOTS of land, and it would be HIGHLY beneficial if the garage was attached so there was a place to set up my pottery studio.  Now that I have my business up and running we can't afford for me not to have somewhere to do pottery. 

It's a daily struggle, and one that we will find answers to when the time is right. 

Thank you for letting me "vent".  :)  More pottery related posts to follow soon!  I have been WICKED busy in the studio and trying lots of new stuff.  Can't wait to show everyone and get it listed on Etsy!



  1. Sorry for your struggles, sometimes when it rains it pours. But I've found things have a way of working themselves out, and hope you find a home soon that let's you guys be closer to family.

    Wishing you the best,

  2. So hoping you find the right home soon and sorry for your troubles - you have an incredible spirit though that just shines through. P xxx

  3. You are a talented person I totally agree with Patricia you do have am incredible spirit that shines through.

  4. You just keep hanging there. The art will help you get through. I know it does for me!

  5. It is an extra burden to live in a home that doesn't accommodate you. It can strain so many aspects of your life. I hope you find that perfect place to call home.

    Thanks for dropping by, following your blog now. :)

  6. Hang in there and smile! You'll find a new place to call home; it just takes a little time. You can "vent" anytime, and we'll all be here as supporters. =0)

  7. Wow, you are such a strong person. I hope that you find the perfect place soon and no matter what just keep on going and keep on creating. Sending lots of positive energy your way :)



  8. Thank you all very much for your support and your kind words! I do what I can with what I have. :)